hello all. [ps. excuse para 3. it seems my sponge melted.. and the only thing that came out was brain piss... wtf .. read on!] sorry for the lack of update… actually im only apologizing to the one person who keeps giving me evils about it, i don’t think the rest are looking 
… well honestly there hasn’t really been that much that needs reporting, ive been doing nothing since last week which was a week of me being extremely motivated. the studio visits were great.. people who didn’t go really missed out.. sorry im going to be mean about it mwhahahahahaha.. i don’t know i guess for me i found something, a little spark that really made me want to work. HOWEVER! straight after that… (this week) it distinguished somewhat.. and ive spent the last 5 days solidly on the internets doing nothing but manga and dramas. urgh.. no matter how much i have a desire to work, im really not going to change that quickly.. yes 5 days of solid manga sleeping at 4 am waking at 3 is just what i need to get the ‘meh’ attitude out of my system. ive barely been out of the house.. to save on money for travel and food.. (my two biggest killers) ive got people coming on the weekend and i need to reserve funds.. i can’t really bring myself to ask for more money.. not that anyone really needed to know that at all. hohoho
anywho! this is the first summer ive really managed to have.. somewhat easy… im leaving the driving test behind.. and i don’t really feel the pressure of going back to help my parents.. even though they never express it verbally the tension in the silence sort of says it all really. for various reasons which i dont really the right to say here.. my brother never really returns home to help out.. so i always feel like i should…. i don’t see it right that our parents should have to ask us to come back. we should have the common sense enough. i have no idea how long ive been thinking this way.. it been a good few years since we left swansea…(10 infact… crickey thats a decade!).. so somewhere along the line ive sort of managed to convince myself every holiday i need to go home for the whole stretch…. not that dan ever really does.. (for his uberspecific and somewhat (imho) selfish reasons) I guess i always hated holidays for some reason when i was going through secondary school. understandably i was indeed the freak of the class. the notion of being occupied with trivial tasks that weren’t particularly difficult to handle seem much more entertaining than going home (all that waffle just meant school work). jumping through hoops in a system was much more entertaining at the time! :% yes foamage indeed! well this summer having been offically relieved of my duties.. thanks to the long awaited return of my uncle i’m some what free to have a little bit of fun and travelling.. i am a very half arsed person, but i shall get my lazy butt out to Poland!!! YARRR!!
omg teh wafflage.. i can’t even remember what i was originally talking about… erm anywho.. last week was extremely fun.. i fully intend on stealing some of my brothers friends.. mwhahahhhhahaah… well not really… but yes much fun was had, and many words exchange.. much was understood and fun was made.. holy crap.. not only do i lack grammar… i also lack the ability to not talk like a fool.. hurrah! look what good secondary school gave me.. anywho!
till next time! which if you’re lucky will be another monthly wait!
ps… in my brothers phone book im listed as Evil. ^_^ charming! as am I! :%%%%%
