well well well.. lots of good things happening of late… such as friendships reestablished, me being happy and content just resting my arse and doing bugger all. its rather good.
i popped back to swansea for ten days ish.. finally saw my mother after about half a year.. and my unc. did a good number of sketches, and a really great one of my uncle who hates taking photos.. he proceeded to ask me to sign it… so he likes it.. yay me. i guess this is for my own info… since it boring just to read…
went back to bristol.. it took me a week or so but i cleaned my room, (yes this is a blog of a emo 14 year old who over estimates her importance to the human race) i vacuumed it three times.. threw away 2 binbags of rubbish, ebayed off roughly (roughly!) 7% of my comic collection, got a box full of goodies for charity and gained masses of free space; all round win i say.. the place has been a state for a year since ive never been back long enough to clean it.. but as soon as i finished i found the urge to just work on my beautiful worktop space that stretches a continuous three meters (now that is what i call a desk!) (which has a corresponding length wall space of foam board (not cork.. cheaper but does the job!) to pin up all my worldly desires and jisuk cho prints (swooonn<3) its good i finally felt at home again. when it rained .. it was amazing.. i have a view of a playing field and when it rains as a pours the earth smells amazing.. damp wood… possibly the most distinctive smell that sets bristol apart from london. i saw old friends from at last after a year. got to know existing friends better. vespa’d my butt everywhere.. not taking the bus! ha! me and my little ram lamb (started call him ramsey because he looks like a ram.. and i like gordan ramsay..)
back in london now.. and realised how dull my flat is… its lovely spacious, and situated in a prime location .. just feels dead. after a month away from london i feel like a fucking tourist.. or just the type of person who walks too slow.. travels contraflow.. realising they’ve taken the wrong turn in the underground.. walking slap bang in the middle of walkways.. yep thats me. and as an official welcome back i got chatted up on the bus home. i hate it. ‘nihaonihaonihaonihao’ (yes they didn’t punctuate..) (ffs) ‘yes hello. no i don’t speak cantonese’. ‘can i touch your hair’ was the pick up line of choice followed by ‘don’t go home.. you can have lots of fun with us’.. ‘do you live alone.. ‘.. ‘er yes i live with my BROTHER’ (pick the fucking hint) ‘please take your arm off me’.. ‘why?’…. my god. old, undesirable and middle eastern (not aiming to be prejudice but i not the first time ive gotten shit from middle eastern men.. the rest are nice chaps who you greet by saying ‘ello boss’.) so i got off.. do i look eaassyyy?? ffs.
on another note. had a great day with svenni who told me i was maturing.. er? about fucking time? but its great.. she also complimented me on everything thing i wore.. a total first.. (well chuffed.. absolutely beaming in my seat as i type, i usually get giggles and smiles in response to what im wearing). i also got told by shin that i don’t need pretty shoes.. because im ‘ELLEN’. its a bona fide adjective, no not just a noun folks! and and and.. Jen would like an ellen tucked away in her wardrobe for crits, chinese sqeaks and rants. i love my friends very much!
also also also.. keep talking to jen.. only to be engulfed in self loathing.. (she who is doing xxxx jobs, commissions and self initiated vs me whos daily activities include breathing, sleeping and internets)… its my fault i shouldn’t blame my wuvly friends :’( but actually i realised i sort of have three commissions myself. a bunch of fantasy/sci fi esque illustrations for his OCs and settings.. – currently very difficult because he’s not a visual led kinda guy .. im pretty much designing a lot of the stuff based on his descriptions. Svenni, asked me to do a few sets of pictures/paintings for her whole flat.. thats about 4 rooms, each with a set theme. i was asked to do this about nine months ago, its sort of faded till now… and its a great project, the challenge being the deco is set and its not overly aesthetically pleasing (which is also what she said too.. not me stabbing my friends taste behind her back.. ah hem) so i have to compliment that .. one particular room is very small.. so i have to do something that doesn’t break up the wall space and make it look too crowded. she loved prints of my work.. (wahhh 
) and she just wants a whole wall full of prints of my work.. (im bathing in glory as we speak ahhh…). on top of that a friend demands bean bags!
so whats happening now is that i am preparing for poland. much fun shall be had. indeed. thanks shiiin
(excuse the odd speech today.. trying to emphasize the 33333333333s)
and i have a pile of drawings and scans that noones seen yet so yar. and i actually will be bothered at that point to have some pikchas in my blog so you poor souls who have gotten this far into this blog wont have to plough through the grammatically illiterate ramblings and feel like they’ve wasted 10 minutes of their lives. yay!