alright you lazy bums (or the ones more hardworking than myself who don’t have enough time to blog).. im feeling pretty uncharecteristic.. ive always looked forward to going back to school.. that was during secondary where i had no mental capacity to control my own summer breaks and actually have a good time… this has been a pretty good summer.. i set my self targets.. and i sort of completed them in a half arsed fashion.
Really not looking forward to returning to uni… its the second year.. that pretty much every one intimates you and warns you about it, and how first year is a walk in the park. To top it off ive decided to go for graphic design so there will be none of this mindless scribbling that supposedly comes hand in hand with illustrators and nonsense babbling. this mindless scribbling is exactly what i don’t want to be a part of which is why i opted for graphics. I want to narrative for fucks sake, i wanted to feel reassured that the teachers have some sort of idea what narrative was and that they could point me in the right direction if what i did was total bollocks, but no narrative at the degree show was pretty dissappointing, actually sort of heart breaking almost. an illustrator is a story teller.. and theres no point in creating an illustration with a fucking blurb to ’story tell’ it. Im pretty harsh about this kind of thing (because im sure i have some sort of an opinion?? … hmm..) .. in a really snobby way but when you read sequential art, you see a whole new dimention to illustration and a pretty picture is just flat in comparison. i sound like a total bitch. oh crap i hope i survive this year. i’d love to take 2 years out of university and just write and write and then draw my own graphic novel, but its a full time job and i can’t do it half arsed which is my very crap excuse of not starting yet.
i’m starting to wonder what the hell im going to do after uni (excuse all the profanities today), blind immature optimism is only going to take me so far. I saw jen a few times during the summer.. for those who don’t know, jen is my foundation buddy who is almost as opinionated as me when it comes to anything illustrationy. after a few talks.. i was confronted by the question ‘what do you actually want to do?’, to be honest, everything, i have a list that will take two lifetimes to complete. although theres way too much to chew on the talks by CSM graduates before the summer really inspired me. The studio folk and ross cooper just made the lifestyle of a graduate look so damn awesome. A lone crusader on a voyage of self discovery of new challenges, boundaries and all things visual as if they existed outside of society; the only ones looking in at the joke and pittying those tied down my bills and a nine to five job. i intend on living a very near sighted life, taking things as they come.
